Loving My Rejected Luna

Chapter 40

Kiara had a frown on her face as she stared at the entrance of the restaurant. What was taking Zane so long? What could he have been talking about with Raymond?

After what seemed like an hour, She finally saw Zane walk out of the restaurant and seconds later, he was inside the car.

“Drive” He uttered to the driver who immediately did as was told.

As the driver drove back to the hotel, Kiara ignored Zane and stared at anything but him which made him sigh.

He kept glancing at her but not once did she glance at him.

“Stop the Car” That got her attention. She turned to Zane with a raised eyebrow.

“Why should he stop the car?” But Zane ignored her.

“Didn’t I give you an order?” The driver immediately swerved to the side of the road and parked the car.

“Get out” He muttered and the driver bowed his head before getting out of the car and closing the door behind him.

“What the heck is going on here?” Kiara questioned with a frown and he sighed before turning to her.

“Let’s talk” She scoffed then rolled her eyes before pulling the handle on the door.

“I don’t have anything to say to you and neither do I even want to talk to you. If you don’t want to take me to the hotel then fine, I’ll walk there” She muttered and tried opening the door but it wouldn’t budge.

She tried several times and even pounded her fist on the door but it still didn’t open up. She sighed then slowly turned towards him with emotionless eyes.

“Let me out,” Zane shook his head.

“Not unless you hear what I have to say. Just give me fifteen minutes to talk to you, that’s all I need” She stared at him for a while then sighed.

“Five minutes and that’s it” He flashed a smile then nodded.

“Okay, I’ll try to be quick. First and foremost, Samantha and I have nothing going on and we never did. I never got anyone pregnant and after you left, I never dated anyone else so that was just a lie” She folded her arms as she stared at him.

“And how am I sure you’re telling me the truth?” He sighed then ran his palm down his face.

“I want to still believe you know me well enough, Kiara and no matter what, even if I wanted to date someone else, it would never be your sister. I won’t be able to do that to you” She had to admit that she was glad he hadn’t been with her sister but what about the other things Rose has said?

“You called me a cheating slut?” He froze slightly then sighed.

“Yes I did but it was because I was furious. At that time, I was angry and I thought calling you names would make me feel better but…”

“Did it make you feel better?” He shook his head.

“If anything, it made me feel worse. I felt like I wasn’t enough for you and that’s why you had to meet other men. At a point I began to blame myself for what happened and even thought maybe it was because I was too busy with my Alpha duties and was neglecting you” She stared at him with a frown. He had been enough for her and no other man had ever even crossed her mind so if anything, where did she go wrong? Why didn’t he trust her enough to know that she would never cheat on him?

“What about now? How do you see me?” She asked in a low voice then they both went silent. Zane stared at her for a while, as if searching for the right words to use, then he grabbed her hand and gave it a little squeeze.

“Right now, the woman in front of me is the woman I loved with everything in me. My Kiara, that’s who I see you at” She turned to him.

“And when we are out of Paris? How would you see me then?” She noticed the way he tensed up and that made her even more sad. Had she been the only one thinking that they could get back to the way they used to be after the trip? By his reaction, he hadn’t even thought about that.

“Kiara…”

“You don’t have to answer that. I don’t even know why I asked that when we both promised there won’t be any strings attached. Forget I asked about that” She uttered then pulled her hand out of his grip before staring out the window.

Silent tears fell down her cheeks as she cussed herself in her head. She wanted to yell at him and hit him for not trusting her, for not letting her defend herself, for making her lose her child…. Their child but she didn’t.

There was no use anymore. If he didn’t trust her back then even after everything they had been through then he wasn’t capable of trusting her now.

She gasped slightly when he wrapped his arms around her body and pulled her close. She turned to stare at him but ended up staring intently into his eyes.

“I want nothing more than to be able to call you my woman again and to be able to hold you, love you and kiss you whenever I want…”

“But?” He caressed her cheek lightly then let out a sigh.

“I can’t guarantee what’s going to happen after our Vacation here, My love. You might decide you don’t want to be with me anymore or something might drift us apart and… and I’m scared. Scared of giving my heart to you again and having it broken. I went through a lot after you left and I don’t know if I’m willing to go through that again. I don’t want to go through that again” He murmured then his arm tightened around her like he was scared she would disappear. She could have sworn she heard his voice crack.

“Then why are we both doing this when we are scared? Scared of what we might do to each other? Let’s just end this and we’ll go our separate ways. We were able to live without each other for two years and I’m sure we can do it again” Zane shook his head. All content © N/.ôvel/Dr/ama.Org.

“I finally got you back and I don’t want to lose you again. Do you know how many times I dreamt of holding you like this at night? I want you, Kiara. I want to put the past behind so I can love you and be loved by you”