Lie To Me

Chapter 9: 09

Hans has been a nice friend to me. Ever since, he has been a good companion, I can't say anything

bad about him taking care of me and loving me as a friend. I’m still thankful because I have a Hansel

Del Simo.

"Because you're stupid. You're weird." I said which he just laughed at.

The idiot really. I didn't even know what to do, I was still being laughed at.

My whole day was spent at Hans’ pad. And because he was so guilty of what happened to me, he just

didn't go to work to accompany me.

We didn't do anything but watch some series on Netflix. He took care of me all day even when I didn't

have to.

"What did you feel?" He suddenly asked.

We were done eating our dinner and we started watching the new series again.

"Huh?" I turned to face him; I was clueless.

I was lying on his long couch while he was on the single sitter.

"When you saw him. How did you feel?" He clarifies.

I was immediately stunned. "I felt ... hurt." I admitted.

I can't hide anything from him.

"I was hurt before but I am hurting more now, knowing he still has this effect on me." I said honestly.

"You know that, after all the pain, the nights I cried, all the anxiety, he still has this same effect on me. Please check at N/ôvel(D)rama.Org.

It's just so painful that after all my suffering, he just called me "My name is, my heart will be beating

fast. He's just a little closer, even though I haven't seen what he looks like yet, even if it's just his

presence, my whole system is in turmoil right away." I breathed then smirked.

"It seems like it's just silly of myself, I'm being betrayed. I'm being fooled too." I added, I barely even

laughed at my own words.

I looked at him as I sighed. He was staring at me blankly.

I tilted my head, trying to figure him out.

Hans, sometimes, has this moment. When you say something to him that is too serious then he will just

look at you. I called it, alien mode.

I rolled my eyes.

If you don't know him, you can misinterpret his behavior.

Hans is not a good speaker, but he could always lend his ear to anyone who needed it.

I just think sometimes. Why don't we just do it? As Reysa said, why can't I just love her and love me

too. But that thought often leads to disgust.

"Hans, why don't we try each other?" I asked, voicing out my thoughts suddenly. “We’ve known each

other for the longest time and we are very compatible.” I added.

I laughed.

Sometimes I'll think, if he's gay. But then, I knew better. He's straight, he's just waiting for something.

And we? We are platonic. And up to that point, it's disgusting to go beyond that

It was his turn to roll his eyes. “Stop thinking nonsense, Jianna. Better think on how you’ll make

yourself stable if ever you meet him again,” he said.

“That would be really hard,” I said.

"Do you still love him?" He asked after a while.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know." I answered truthfully.

After that, none of us speak furthermore. We were both quite watching but sometimes speak when we

give comments on why North Koreans can't fall in love with South Koreans.

That's sad and ... tragic.

Well, I wish I could have my own Captain Ri.