45 – Marianne
There were some things in this world that, no matter what you did, you couldn’t and possibly wouldn’t be able to change. I know that despite the fact that Jack and I love each other very deeply, it is impossible for us to be together in the eyes of other people. Even if it is something that we are able to find a means to work on, it was not simple enough for us to be able to do it quickly as we could or wanted.
This, however, was merely my personal opinion.
As it turned out, Jack was thinking about something else entirely.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!
“Let’s get married,” Jack said as if it was the easiest thing to do in the world for him.
I was stunned, and my heart pounded fast inside. My mind blank, I called him, “Aki–”
“Not now, I know we can’t right now. But someday, I’m saying someday I want to do it… With you. If it’s with you, I want to do it. Don’t you want to?” He asked me, his eyes clear and bright like a glass hit by the morning light, seemingly whispering all his feelings all for me.
We were both naked under the blanket and in bed, Jack hugged me from behind and kissed my shoulder neck while casually speaking. His feathery kisses made me calm, my tensed shoulders slowly coming down as I let out a breath.
According to him, he and Crista will handle the divorce paperwork together in order to ensure that they have no further interaction with one another. When it comes to Jack, I had no doubts as I always believed he would do what he said anyway. He was aware of my concern when I discovered him with Crista back at the hotel, and given how I felt about him in addition to how he had always treated me, I knew he would do everything to avoid hurting me purposely. He was that thoughtful and serious, and I appreciated him all the more for it… Even though I have the feeling that I am becoming more and more greedy to the point it was scary…
But then he spoke. About getting married.
He might have noticed it as I felt Jack hug me tighter from behind and kissed my cheek while rubbing my neck. “I won’t force you if you don’t want to.”
“N-No, it’s not that… Aki…” I told him gently. It wasn’t like what he said was entirely impossible. More than anything, our relationship is still in the dark today. No one else knows about our relationship except us. Even our ‘closest’ friends were still unaware of what was happening between Jack and me. And it was something that remained behind closed doors even until now that Jack started to live with me and our baby Amy.
“Then what is it?” Jack asked me softly. He planted another kiss on my shoulder as if to coax me and make me surrender and give in with his soft touches. “What’s the problem?”
I took his arm and caressed him gently. Then breathing out, I slowly turned to face him, my eyes meeting his. I wanted to ask if he was serious about what he said, but from the looks of it, I already knew the answer. In the end, I decided to divert the topic first.
“You have a job, I have a job too. Amy is growing up,” I said.
“Uh-huh,” Jack replied.
“What I’m saying is … I think we should prepare for it first,” I said to Jack.
“You want a grand wedding?” Jack asked jokingly with a smile.
“What? N-No, that’s not what I mean–”
“Just tell me, I’m really going to save up for it. What kind of wedding do you like?” he said mischievously again and kissed me on the lips and seemingly inhaling my scent.
I responded immediately with a sweeter kiss, “Not really … My heart is already full knowing I have you and Amy. Just having you two is more than enough, more than I could ever wish for to be happy…” I honestly said to Jack as I caressed his face, sighing in satisfaction at the simple touches and feeling of being adored by the person in front of me.
Jack smiled at my response. He took my hand that was on his cheek and kissed it lightly. He then let out a sigh similar to mine, lowering his head as he didn’t waste time, and pulled me in for a kiss. His lips touched mine in a sweet kiss. It was soft and gentle, brimming with love and affection. With every touch, we felt the emotions we had for each other. Emotions that were only for us to receive and savor.
The gentleness soon began to become daring. Jack’s hand crawled down and began to knead my plump breasts. Jack lowered the blanket slightly and stuck out his tongue, his mouth finding my nips that had gotten hard.
I moaned at the sensation coming from his skillful mouth. He slowly sucked on my nips as if taking his time while his other hand began to pinch the other and playfully knead my chest. I couldn’t help but move my hips at the sensation, accidentally feeling Jack’s excitement below me. It was rubbing against my thigh and it was hard like a rock.
I touched Jack’s face and then firmly kissed his lips again. I struggled to breathe as I whispered in anticipation, “I-I want you…”
Jack stared at me with fire surging in his eyes. It didn’t take him another second as he dove in, his mouth quickly attacking my own as we kissed with our emotions and desires overflowing within us. He didn’t stop our kisses as he just kneaded my thighs, his hands skillfully and almost unnoticeably separating them which sent shivers down my spine.
Jack’s body was already very familiar to me. He already knew where my soft spots were and the parts where I could reach my climax and ecstasy. Moments later I felt the familiar intrusion into my cave. I was already wet but I was too prepared and eager for what was to come next.
He wanted me and I wanted him. We both knew it and we both craved for it.